A Perfect Match

Sometimes I can't help but sit and think about my life now and the way it used to be. I have always been very blessed, even through my hardest times I have always had so much more than some people do. But my life has now genuinely become the "fairy tale" I've always dreamed for. Is my life perfect? No way. Do I have everything I need and more? Yes. Do I have tons of money and not a care in the world? Definitely no. But now even more than ever in my life I have realized that less is sometimes more. We are a one income family now with a whopping pile of medical bills that will probably not be ending for quite a while. But we pay our bills every month and have even somehow managed to start chipping away at those bills because God has provided for us. My nearly 3 month old baby has already faced some giant challenge in his short life so far and God is blessing us with his continual improvement. I have always known I was super-blessed in the area of family but everyday just confirms to me that the amazing family I have is rare and greatly treasured. I have a mom who is my biggest fan and my closest friend. I have two beautiful sons that I have the honor and privilege to stay home with now and make the kind of impact on their lives that I prayed I would have the opportunity for. And I have a husband who has proved far beyond my wildest dreams of the perfect man for me.

Let me tell you, God truly does know who will be our perfect match. We can spend our lives searching for that "perfect person" that meets every requirement we have set for ourselves and we can even try to force the issue if we falsely think we've found that person but find that they actually need a little help in actually becoming that right person. I can remember so many days of feeling sorry for myself because I was alone while watching so many people around me so happy with their own families. Those days would produce the "oh, I will never find anyone. I have a kid and no man will want a part of that." Blah, blah, blah. How much time did I waste focusing on the wrong things? It was only when I stopped trying to control my own destiny that God was able to take my mess and make it into something beautiful. At that time, even though I didn't know, he was getting my perfect match ready. Just like he was working on me, weeding out the things that we needed to let go of or get rid of so that we would be ready when He decided that the timing was right. Being the eternal optimist that I am- yeah, right- I never really believed that I would ever truly get what I had always hoped and prayed for. I wrongly believed from my past experiences that I would end up having to compromise on something. But God doesn't work that way. If you really just submit to His plan, He will give you the very best He has for you.

My husband is exceptional. He is unlike anyone I have ever known. He is be funniest person I have ever been around. Seriously. His sense of humor matches up so perfectly with mine. I genuinely laugh at him and trust me, they are never sympathy laughs. He is so sensitive and nurturing to me. Even if he doesn't understand the way I am sometimes, he supports me and shows genuine concern for my feelings. He is obsessed with the Food Network just like me and is the only person I can think of who I can sit and watch hours of Diners, Drive-ins, and Dives and be completely entertained while at the same time plan every single one of our future vacations together based on where we can eat the best food. We can spend hours shopping. Yes, I said shopping. I REALLY feel like I hit the jackpot on that one. And we talk. Really talk. All the time. About anything an everything. He is my best friend and I can't stand spending one night away from him.

But above all of those wonderful things and a million more that I could write about, He loves me with the love of Christ. The other morning I thought I was dreaming that he was standing next to our bed talking to me with his hand on me. But I wasn't dreaming and he wasn't just talking. He was praying over me before he left for work for he day. He would not hesitate one second to lay down his life for me our our children. He is not just standing by watching me raise Brian because he is "mine" but he
is actually investing in my son's life. He doesn't always get the credit at being Brian's dad from everyone else but he is a father in every sense of the word. He wants him to be successful and change the world someday. Brian isn't just mine anymore, he is ours. He works hard at his job, wanting to advance and make the most l every situation so that he can provide the best life for us and allow me to stay home. He never complains about why He has to do; he does it joyfully. And at the end of the day he is never too tired to get on the floor and play trains with Brian or do the dishes for me after dinner to give me a break. I love that man and he is my dream come true. Our marriage isn't perfect, but we love each other deeply and strive to put God first. And because of that, He has blessed us with a pretty perfect life in my opinion.

So my life has changed in a way that makes me want to tell everyone of God's goodness and faithfulness. Trust me, my life has been so much better in His hands than in my own.