Just Checking In...

Instead of having so much free time here at work doing absolutely nothing (but blogging!) I am so happy to be able to use that time to spend with my son.  It has been a wonderful month getting to spend most of my days with him.  The only downside to that is my blog is suffering because with only working 2 days now, I actually have work to do when I am there :)

Things are continuing to go so well for our family.  We have adjusted quite well to our newly reduced income actually!  I have found some ways to cut corners on groceries and with me only commuting to work 2 days a week, it has saved on gas too. I really want to be one of those super couponing mom's but I get so overwhelmed just reading about other people couponing.  I wish I could afford to hire someone to do it for me! Ha ha! We also just sold our extra car this week so that was definitely a blessing!  Not only do we have the much needed money from the sale, but our car insurance dropped about $35 a month!  Now we just pray our cars last ;)

Brian had a WONDERFUL speech evaluation on Monday, too.  It was definitely an answered prayer for me.  We found a therapist who made him feel comfortable which was the biggest plus in my opinion.  She told us that a child Brian's age has an attention span of FOUR MINUTES at a time!!  She was amazed that the last "evaluation" had Brian in a room for over 2 hours without any breaks.  She even stopped midway when she saw his attention start to fade and gave him some juice and crackers.  That was just what he needed since he had eaten such a light breakfast.  Funny how a little snack can change everything.  Anyway, her findings were so positive and she gave us some ideas for some extra help for him.  He even showed off a little and corrected her a few times.  It made me so happy that he was acting like himself and developed such a good rapport with her.  By the end of the session, he was making jokes with her.  When I left, I literally felt the weight lift off my shoulders.  It is frustrating when all you want is what is best for your child and it seems other people have alterior agendas.

Sometimes I imagine God shaking his head and saying, "Jessica, when are you ever going to learn that I've got this?"   I get so frustrated with myself for not 100% always putting things in His hands.  He has ALWAYS taken care of me.  Even when I felt my world was falling apart, He was STILL working out the details for my good. I want to be able to never give my fears a second thought. I want to be able to look at a challenging situation and say "He's got this" and then leave it alone.  But instead, I keep visiting that fear occasionally fully knowing that nothing I can do is going to affect the situation.  I am striving for the day when "fear" or "worry" are wiped out of my vocabulary for good.

Thank you for listening to me rattle on about the details of my life.  And thank you for praying for us.