He works all things out for my good

Wow, what a weekend I had.  I celebrated the 9 month anniversary of our first date with my sweet boyfriend and he surprised me by becoming my sweet fiance!  That's right- I AM ENGAGED!  After the sweetest proposal ever, the man who God so graciously brought into my life 9 months ago to the day asked me to be his wife.  And I have never been more excited!  And I noticed something that maybe he doesn't even remember (he was pretty nervous and shaky).  But when he was sharing his heart with me, he constantly kept telling me that he loved someone else too- my son.  He will never know how much that meant to me.  Brian was with his daddy this weekend, so he wasn't a physical part of our engagement but he was definiately part of it at heart!  We went to Redrock Canyon Grill and had a wonderful dinner to end the perfect anniversary!  And did I mention my ring is BEA-UTIFUL!!?!?

On a serious note, let me say that I give 100% of my happiness to God.  I can remember 2 years ago, my life was dramatically different than it is today.  I had a beautiful one year old who I adored but I was walking in one of the darkest times of my life.  I was facing my first holiday season on my own which was heartbreaking and scary for me.  Sure, I had the most amazing family that anyone could ever be blessed with (especially my beautiful mama who was my rock) but I am very family-oriented and facing the holidays alone was tough.  I wanted to play Christmas music and decorate the tree and eat Thanksgiving dinner with my son and husband.  But I didn't have one anymore.  All this babbling gets me to my point- GOD WORKED EVERYTHING OUT FOR MY GOOD.  I probably grew more as a person during that time than I ever had before.  I became less shy and more self-sufficient.  I realized that I could do a lot on my own- work 2 jobs, raise a beautiful boy, make a home.  Now all this wasn't without help. I COULD NOT have done it without my family and God helping me everyday.  But I can remember leaving my job teaching 4 year olds from 9-3 and going immediately to the office to work until 10 at night and being so tired and so discouraged at times.  I was tired, didn't feel like I got to spend enough time with my son, stressed financially, stressed from the worst divorce ever.  There were times when I would be driving home and I would wonder if there was someone out there for me who would not only love the Lord, but love me and my son as well. 

Life got easier.  God worked it out for me to be home with Brian more and not be stretching myself so thin.  And I started to get stronger and happier.  I knew that my life was better.  And so was Brian's.  And God worked every negative thing out for my God.  I just had to let him instead of trying to control it myself and be mean, bitter, and angry. 

And now, 2 years later, God gave me an amazing man that I get to share my life with.  I could never say enough about my future husband.  He is wonderful.  The best of the best.  I will forever be thankful for him and for God changing my life over the last nearly 3 years of this life changing journey.