So Many Changes

Well, here I have abandoned my blog again. Seems to happen every time.  I do well for a while, and then I start to slack.  So much has been going on in my life lately -wonderful things- that God has blessed my family with and I need to take the time to truly reflect on those things.

My biggest praises right now:

Brian - He is doing SO GREAT in school.  I was so torn at the thought of putting him in school so soon.  I just felt like he was too young (barely 4 when school started) and just wanted to do the right thing by him.  I wanted to make sure he was ready so he could be successful.  But when he was diagnosed with a speech delay, all I kept hearing was how going to school everyday would probably correct the problem in a short time, better than any kind of therapy.  So that was my deciding factor.  Thankfully, we have been blessed with a great teacher and assistant teachers and it has truly shown.  He loves going to school and has met many new friends.  And boy, is he learning!  And the biggest blessing of all is how much his speech has improved.  He is getting speech therapy at school and is learning how to speak slower.  He tends to get excited and speak very fast which can cause him to be harder to understand.  But now he is just talking like such a grown up.  We are so proud of him and thankful that God has worked in the way he has in his life.

Our new baby-  Wes and I are so excited to have a baby together.  This is going to be the only baby we have together, so it is even extra special.  With me having high risk pregnancies and getting older (ha!) we just feel like this is where we should stop.  We don't want to put a baby or me in a dangerous situation and we feel like this is exactly where our family should be.  We are due on June 16th, so that makes me right at 12 weeks.  So far, everything is going great.  This pregnancy has been a lot harder on me physically than Brian.  Maybe it is because I already have a 4 year old :)  But I seem to have to been watching a lot more.  My blood pressure obviously, some issues that I did not have with Brian that can be worrying, and having Celiac disease too.  I have tended to be very slack at times on my gluten-free diet since being diagnosed.  Because I am not "severely damaged" by it yet, sometimes the yummy food is worth the stomach ache.  But after a lot of research, I have found out that it isn't good for the baby.  So I have really cracked down on no gluten.  I know it will be impossible to never accidentally have any gluten, but I am being very diligent.  I even had  my first gluten free thanksgiving dinner thanks to my mama!  It was good and I didn't feel like I was missing out at all.

Wes-  Pregnancy is very hard on a woman, but it also affects everyone else.  I am so grateful to have a husband who has really stepped up to help me when I am feeling exhausted or sick.  I know I am on an emotional rollercoaster a lot right now, but he has been so supportive of the changes I am going through and I am thankful for that.

Monday is our 2nd doctor appointment, so I am praying that I will get some questions answered and a lot of extra stress that I have been carrying around will be relieved.  Pregnancy is scary and it seems even scarier this time. I struggle with feeling 100% responsible for this baby since I am the only one "in charge" of it right now.  But I'm really not.  God is.  So I am learning to pry open my grip on worry and put it in His hands instead.