A New Kind of New Year

As I begin to write this blog post, I am wondering, "will people even read this since I'm not posting about it on Facebook?"  I may be writing this for nothing, but hey, it's for me anyway so why not?

I am starting off this new year differently than I have any other year.  Our church does a 21 day Daniel fast at the beginning of each new year and I really wanted to do it this year.  After a very convincing talk with our pal Laura at church, Wes decided to bite the bullet and give up meat for 21 days! (Thanks, Laura!!)  I was feeling some anxiety about it (ironic, huh?) since I am 4 months pregnant.  I wanted to do it so much but was scared of not getting my little bambino enough of what it (yes, it.  For 6 more days anyway!) needs.  So I've done some reading, asking, and heart searching and have come to determine after one day of fruits and veggies only that I am going to add in a little protein and dairy.  I just feel so yucky and shaky and just want to be healthy.  And I know that the Lord knows my heart and also the little blessing inside me. 

This is still huge for me though  because that means no dr. pepper a day, and (gasp) no junk!  You know I've had a sweet tooth this pregnancy like a big dog, so this won't be easy!  Also, Wes and I decided to give up Facebook for the entire time too.  This is a big deal to me.  Especially on the 2 days a week I work.  I live on Facebook during that time.  But this is about giving up something that isn't necessary to my life and that can be distracting at times.  So bye, Facebook, for now.  I haven't had any huge desire to get on there, but it is is hard to be out of the loop with everyone!

I am hoping to get some major clarity and faith for some big important issues during these next few weeks.  Wes has come up with a mission for our family in 2012 which I am hanging onto and learning how to do.  It is learning to trust God for everything:  Family, finances, etc.  With some big changes coming this year, I am trying to fully rely on God and not myself for answers.  Here are a few of the things I am praying about during my fast:

1. Work situation/finances with 2 babies
2. Brian's speech/school and his continual dealing with the 2 home thing (HIS BEST INTEREST FIRST!!)
3.  A few people in my family

I am really already learning and it has only been one day.  The biggest thing I have learned so far is that wow, how weak the flesh is.  When I find myself feeling sorry for myself over something trivial as a snack or a caffeine headache, I think "man, are you selfish!  Christ gave himself for you and you can't even do this without complaining?"  What a humbling experience and one I have never been through before.