Rainy Days

I love a good rainy day every now and then. It actually puts me in the mood to accomplish something, like cleaning or organizing...I usually get a lot done. But too many rainy days at once give me way to much time to think. That along with things being quiet around the office lately has made me a little down in the dumps. It has gotten me to start thinking about how lonely I am sometimes. I'm really never by myself- I always have Brian or a friend or a family member around usually. But the loneliness I feel is a different kind. I am lonely for a family of my own. Someone to come home to, to talk to about my day, someone to lean on. Someone to love that loves me unconditionally in return. On days like these, I wonder if that will ever happen for me again. Don't get me wrong, I am so very thankful for my life. God has blessed me far, far beyond what I deserve. But He also knows the true desires of my heart. When I start getting down, I have to really work at reminding myself that His plans are far greater than any I may have for myself. And that those plans will come through in HIS time- not mine. That has always been a struggle for me. I get impatient sometimes when it is something that is very dear to my heart, something I want so much. I need patience and peace for the future.